I promise that if you love me, I will love you. If you give all of your heart to me, every last piece of it, I will give you mine and keep on growing to give you even more. If you are loyal to me and stay faithful, I will never look at another man. If you treat me well and make me happy, I will do anything to make you happy. If you give me all you can, I will do the same. If I am the only one you love, I promise to be with you forever. If you truly care about me and think I’m your world, I promise to love you until the ends of earth and make every day until our last a memory to cherish.
My future husband, I love you. I have loved before, but not how I love now. I trust you and I cherish you. Though you do so much for me, I don’t take any of it for granted because I know it’s all mine. I am so glad to have finally found you. I’m going to hold you tight every night. We’ll have a beautiful life, family, and when we finally pass, we’ll know we always had each other. Ours will be a beautiful love with the best laughs, the best hugs, the best kisses, and the best memories. I know we will go through hard times and I know we will disagree but we love each other so much, that we will work it all out.
Bright yellow sandals. Ribbon blue sundress. Hair long and loose. Chipped red nail polish.
Taking long strides across the middle of the courtyard, circling around the fountain. The sun is almost like a warbling trumpet across your shoulders. A few beads of sweet sweat sit on your upper lip. A holographic pigeon pecks at cupcake crumbs that a child in a stroller drops. Arms linked at the elbows, three young girls in identical jeans laugh with chins pointed to the sky.
A cloudless capsized horizon.
Circles, circles. A million air bubbles floating to the surface of the liquid gold. Lines, neon lines swirling around you. Blue, green, white traces of electric ribbon emerging from each fingertip.
It’s so much easier…
Stumbling up a dusty path in the dark. A thin splash of flashlight dancing on the rocky steps that make a spine along the hill’s curved back. Taking off a thick sweatshirt and loosely knotting it around your hips. Breathe in through your nose. The air is so fresh that it lacks any scent. You realize how wonderful it is to breathe so deeply and purely through your nose. The air chills your nasal cavity and your brain is intoxicated by the overdose of oxygen.
And then you realize that you can see. Twinkling lights scattered far into the distance. Green means go, yellow means slow, and red is stop. Seductive emerald, gold, and ruby dots shimmer against nothingness. And- above all the lights- more nothingness.